exploring love,,, (upward spiral)

wow.

these few days in catalina, arizona, spent sharing and learning among friends and family may have been one of the most catalystic weeks of my life.

when i try to reach for what it was i pulled from those days, it is the small things that i remember best.


Katie's bird nest. Rachel's handkerchief, and how she loves to salsa dance. the way Rassouli said the word love.

watching the sky move, sitting next to Porter, as he shared a beautiful story of two very different journeys to the same place.

Amy's hand on the piano keys, before she began to make music so beautiful it rocked me to my core. meeting her on the path, mid-morning.

Charlie's impish smile, how he ran toward Libya anyway.

Jodi, demonstrating tree pose during dinner. Pamela, how she shaped the colors.

Liz, the way she looked up at me and cried. Sherrie's left eye, so green, as she told me something true.

Emily, running through the forest. Sandy, as a teenager. Lisa, the way her eyes glow as she tells me about the tightrope.

Steve, feeling the sound that comes from a white bowl, the way he looks at Tamara.

Tamara, listening to the oldest story i know, laughing when everyone was supposed to be quiet.

Wendy, and open hearted belly laughs. Brent, and how it feels to meet an old friend for the first time.

Reiki. omg, Reiki.

me. the giant rock i carried, how i traded it for a grain of sand. the mirror my heart made. the medal i gave to Meagan and the sound of children laughing.

my fingers spreading the paint.

the next three days,,, some of the hardest and best of my life.


i feel beautifully empty. it is not what i received, but what i was able to let go of, that made the experience so powerful for me.

i am here. ready to experience whatever life may bring me next.

the upward spiral,,, begins.


blessings to you, my lovely friends,,,

jesh *